jealousy?

I hate how people accuse a girl of being jealous and paranoid when her boyfriend's ex starts getting all mushy again and keeps trying to contact him in the middle of the night in some vague attempt to rekindle the past. It's so easy for everyone else to judge your actions, but when they're in your shoes, some of them can be even more rabid than you. Amusing.

Not pretty, not very smart. A girl who doesn't know the meaning of the term coup d'etat, didn't vote, cheated on her then-boyfriend. I know that I don't have a reason to be jealous now because in spite of all her tugging, my boyfriend will not budge and go back to her. But at the same time I envy her for having had that that connection with him. There's always going to be a part of me which will wish that neither of us had our previous relationships, and that we were each other's first and only love. But that's an impossible wish, and I can only do the best with what I have now. I keep my heart open and filled with hope in spite of the negativity.

And even though she's getting on my nerves, I'm better than that. I'm not going to stoop to her level and play games. What she had, she lost, and I got it all. I'll do my best not to lose it.